子曰：「學而時習之，不亦說乎？有朋自遠方來，不亦樂乎？人不知而不慍，不亦君子乎？。」《學而 第一‧一》
人不知而不慍，唉，問君何能爾，心遠地自偏。
讓我kuso一下：
老公不知道我在家帶小孩很煩，他覺得帶小孩就是電腦開著自己打自己的電動，真的只要keep an eye on them就好了，然後到了12:30，老婆在整理房間滿頭大汗，他一副很困惑的樣子，「中午吃什麼？」，叫他自己想一想自己去買，他說要買壽司，我說那是你自己愛吃，小孩不喜歡黑黑的壽司，於是他又一副困惑的臉--就是要等老婆去張羅就對了。
當下我的內心戲：「沒看我在忙嘛？你早上起來就給我打兩個小時電動，肚子餓了就知道找老婆啦？」
張羅一頓飯食即使只是出去買，媽媽總會想一下營養均衡、口味是否適合小孩，例如我家後面一家標榜不加味精的小吃店。爸爸好像就是隨便，覺得冰箱放三天的土司拿出來烤一下隨便吃就可以當午餐，小孩不吃就算了。要出門去餐廳吃飯，媽媽會帶齊小剪刀、餐具，沒去過、比較沒把握的地方，我還會帶玩具或足以讓小孩留在座位上的繪本、圖畫紙。我常說出門吃飯都吃不飽（因為在搞小孩），爸爸就說：「怎麼會？」（因為我搞小孩的時候你在埋頭苦吃啊～）
媽媽這種操心真是「人不知」。
那怎麼辦到不慍啊？去當陶淵明啊，娶個老婆就好啦。詩人是采菊東籬下寫自己的詩，老婆大概招呼一家老小，得去採菊東籬下、叫賣菊花茶！
2010年6月17日 星期四
Prudence vs False Humility
A quotation from a friend's FB profile,
"Don't be so humble - you are not that great."
最近一直想著這句話。
If blood will flow when flesh and steel are one
Drying in the colour of the evening sun
Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetime's argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are
On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are how fragile we are
On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are how fragile we are
How fragile we are how fragile we are
"Don't be so humble - you are not that great."
最近一直想著這句話。
If blood will flow when flesh and steel are one
Drying in the colour of the evening sun
Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetime's argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are
On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are how fragile we are
On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are how fragile we are
How fragile we are how fragile we are
2010年6月13日 星期日
Transition
考完專業考，上學期剛買的vaio小桃就這麼剛好今天掛點，只好從櫃子裡搬出晾了三年還白亮如新的MacBook暫代一下。
比想像的好用呢，拋開成見手指頭動起來，就覺得換機也是輕而易舉。倒不是Apple多令我感動，只是，原來我可以從成見裡解脫，拋開自以為是的濾光鏡，清清爽爽的看事情。
（或者，應該說，拋棄微軟比我想像的容易！）
其實考完試有點悵然若失。塵埃還沒落定的時候，似乎就多一點想像多一點希望，彷彿手裡還握著什麼可能；人生或許會在這裡直行，或者轉彎。是一種接近旅行的期待。
我們翻山越嶺來到一個月台，等著車票就要發下來。
"Seven Days" was all she wrote
A kind of ultimatum note
She gave to me, she gave to me
When I thought the field had cleared
It seems another suit appeared
To challenge me, woe is me
Though I hate to make a choice
My options are decreasing mostly rapidly
Well we'll see
I don't think she'd bluff this time
I really have to make her mine
It's plain to see
It's him or me
Monday, I could wait till Tuesday
If I make up my mind
Wednesday would be fine, Thursday's on my mind
Friday'd give me time, Saturday could wait
But Sunday'd be too late
The fact that he's six feet ten
Might instill fear in other men
But not in me, The Mighty Flea (flee?)
Ask if I am mouse or man
The mirror squeaked, away I ran
He'll murder me in time for his tea
Does it bother me at all
My rival is Neanderthal, it makes me think
Perhaps I need a drink
IQ is no problem here
We won't be playing Scrabble for her hand I fear
I need that beer
Monday, I could wait till Tuesday
If I make up my mind
Wednesday would be fine, Thursday's on my mind
Friday'd give me time, Saturday could wait
But Sunday'd be too late
Seven days will quickly go
The fact remains, I love her so
Seven days, so many ways
But I can't run away
Monday, I could wait till Tuesday
If I make up my mind
Wednesday would be fine, Thursday's on my mind
Friday'd give me time, Saturday could wait
But Sunday'd be too late
Do I have to tell a story
Of a thousand rainy days since we first met
It's a big enough umbrella
But it's always me that ends up getting wet
比想像的好用呢，拋開成見手指頭動起來，就覺得換機也是輕而易舉。倒不是Apple多令我感動，只是，原來我可以從成見裡解脫，拋開自以為是的濾光鏡，清清爽爽的看事情。
（或者，應該說，拋棄微軟比我想像的容易！）
其實考完試有點悵然若失。塵埃還沒落定的時候，似乎就多一點想像多一點希望，彷彿手裡還握著什麼可能；人生或許會在這裡直行，或者轉彎。是一種接近旅行的期待。
我們翻山越嶺來到一個月台，等著車票就要發下來。
"Seven Days" was all she wrote
A kind of ultimatum note
She gave to me, she gave to me
When I thought the field had cleared
It seems another suit appeared
To challenge me, woe is me
Though I hate to make a choice
My options are decreasing mostly rapidly
Well we'll see
I don't think she'd bluff this time
I really have to make her mine
It's plain to see
It's him or me
Monday, I could wait till Tuesday
If I make up my mind
Wednesday would be fine, Thursday's on my mind
Friday'd give me time, Saturday could wait
But Sunday'd be too late
The fact that he's six feet ten
Might instill fear in other men
But not in me, The Mighty Flea (flee?)
Ask if I am mouse or man
The mirror squeaked, away I ran
He'll murder me in time for his tea
Does it bother me at all
My rival is Neanderthal, it makes me think
Perhaps I need a drink
IQ is no problem here
We won't be playing Scrabble for her hand I fear
I need that beer
Monday, I could wait till Tuesday
If I make up my mind
Wednesday would be fine, Thursday's on my mind
Friday'd give me time, Saturday could wait
But Sunday'd be too late
Seven days will quickly go
The fact remains, I love her so
Seven days, so many ways
But I can't run away
Monday, I could wait till Tuesday
If I make up my mind
Wednesday would be fine, Thursday's on my mind
Friday'd give me time, Saturday could wait
But Sunday'd be too late
Do I have to tell a story
Of a thousand rainy days since we first met
It's a big enough umbrella
But it's always me that ends up getting wet
2010年6月3日 星期四
2010年6月1日 星期二
Stage Fright
先前遭遇最慘烈的「緊張」，便是教宗若望保祿二世過世時，凌晨四點早班一上就一路繃緊神經，到了中午要做午間頭條，卻腦袋怎麼樣都是一片空白，長官說我這樣「會被新人看不起」。我也不知道自己怎麼了，但新聞這種東西沒辦法等，我只記得稿子已經遲了，帶子也快不起來，剪接師老大不爽地說「我只能做到這樣，先送上去播再回來重做。」
我在剪接室裡盯著那讓我一點靈感都沒有，卻很想拜託他顯靈一下出神蹟的教宗影像，汗涔涔而淚潸潸啊。
辛苦了一天，明明是可以好好表現的機會，最後卻是壯烈陣亡。也許是被疲勞打敗，也許是那一瞬間被「想要表現」的心情俘虜，反而沒辦法讓腦袋以平常心正常運作。我只想著同事間的競爭，想著主管的指責，沒辦法從那些情緒裡抽離開來，寫不出一條可以俘虜觀眾的新聞。或者，單純是累了，累到腎上腺素消耗殆盡。
現在回想起來，那時候我在意的是怎麼樣可以升遷，怎麼樣突出自己，才能在工作四五年不新不老的階段有個突破。我想著討好長官，低級可以很低級，偏偏有時候又假清高不願意抄報紙，以為可以表現一下「深度」。那個時候工作已經駕輕就熟，閉著眼睛都會做，但遇到像教宗過世的突發狀況，就我一個人做根本還不成氣候。
挫折裡才會領悟到一些事，例如（職場裡）所愛為何、為何所愛。挫折裡這才會越來越清楚。那一波低潮（兼失寵）不久後，我就辭職了。
今天被問到怎麼想來念口譯，我的回答還是一樣「因為那時候剛生小孩，想多一點時間陪孩子，不想上班只好來念研究所。」口譯是副業，家庭主婦才是正職。副業做不成基本上沒關係，不過，副業要是做得起來我就可以升級當貴婦～
我在剪接室裡盯著那讓我一點靈感都沒有，卻很想拜託他顯靈一下出神蹟的教宗影像，汗涔涔而淚潸潸啊。
辛苦了一天，明明是可以好好表現的機會，最後卻是壯烈陣亡。也許是被疲勞打敗，也許是那一瞬間被「想要表現」的心情俘虜，反而沒辦法讓腦袋以平常心正常運作。我只想著同事間的競爭，想著主管的指責，沒辦法從那些情緒裡抽離開來，寫不出一條可以俘虜觀眾的新聞。或者，單純是累了，累到腎上腺素消耗殆盡。
現在回想起來，那時候我在意的是怎麼樣可以升遷，怎麼樣突出自己，才能在工作四五年不新不老的階段有個突破。我想著討好長官，低級可以很低級，偏偏有時候又假清高不願意抄報紙，以為可以表現一下「深度」。那個時候工作已經駕輕就熟，閉著眼睛都會做，但遇到像教宗過世的突發狀況，就我一個人做根本還不成氣候。
挫折裡才會領悟到一些事，例如（職場裡）所愛為何、為何所愛。挫折裡這才會越來越清楚。那一波低潮（兼失寵）不久後，我就辭職了。
今天被問到怎麼想來念口譯，我的回答還是一樣「因為那時候剛生小孩，想多一點時間陪孩子，不想上班只好來念研究所。」口譯是副業，家庭主婦才是正職。副業做不成基本上沒關係，不過，副業要是做得起來我就可以升級當貴婦～
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