趴到底的哲學

先前Berkeley那一票朋友們，鎮日吃喝玩樂享受加州陽光，玩得越兇唸書效率倒也越高，所以在我家餐桌K書的法學博士，期中考前的四月天突然說想趁春光明媚去海邊走走，也是見怪不怪，樂得搭上Prius去吹風。

大抵都念到博士班的人了，也不是不知道自己幾斤幾兩重，壓抑無理犒賞無罪，但能夠明確地分辨自己在何時何地最需要什麼，才是效率/幸福生活的關鍵。

有時覺得口譯表現跟當下的mentality是很有關的。調整腳步，就沒有犧牲，只有享受。

唉，不過我還沒考專業考咧，我是菜鳥菜鳥菜鳥～還是不要隨便說大話啊啊啊啊啊～

Sting is for rainy days

摺完衣服我要來吸地板。

While I Was Sleeping

I was in a green gown, a green cap. Disposable. Recyclable. Wearing new slippers so that my footprints would not carry or leave dirt. There was a carpet of reversed tapes at the entrance of the inner sliding door, which would lead to the operation room. In the waiting room, where I was sitting with five or six others, there was a TV. But my glasses were taken. I was almost bare. Just a green gown, a green cap, new slippers, nothing else, and soon my throat would be cut open and something be taken.

There was a refrigerator storing fresh tissues. Family or whoever accompanying the patient would be called to the window, listening to the doctor explain whether it was benign or hostile, whether it went on well. Staff were rushing in and out, chatty and sometimes melancholy.

Soon I was called. On my way I saw a small room at the corner, door wide open and vacant. Maybe the staff would nap on the sofa once in a while. Then there was another sliding door. Voila.

Immediately I was asked to lie down on the operation table. It was warm. The blanket was warm as well. It was a crowded room as I was surrounded by the anesthesiologist and at least two or three nurses. They said my trachea was not at the place where it should be. Crooked. Therefore the tube might not go very smooth. But I was more worried about lung collapse, a common side effect of general anesthesia. Anyway we didn't chat much. I was put on a mask and fell unconscious before counting to six.

An Ordinary Day

去書店。

誠品是誠品，不是書店。我喜歡去紀伊國屋，文具多一點就更好了。

買一本書像買一點期許，想像閱讀過程的快感、閱讀過後的收穫與回味。不過我乖乖看完的書實在比例上太少了，書常堆得滿地都是，像已經錯過孵化時機失溫的蛋，輕易被買主我遺忘。

花了一天時間看完1Q84，偷翻日文版第三集，啊，牛河上場--我寧願看死去的山羊。

今天微風之夜，書店會員打八折，給孩子們買好島田由佳繪本的要角玩偶。我自己一兩本遊記，食譜，還有日文口譯雜誌。短期間我想我還是只能臥遊並發夢。

The Ting Tings

最近看的日劇插入曲一首。我還是比較喜歡英國歌啊~

謀定而後動

快人快語常是駟馬難追覆水難收。

可是，就像看到SKII面霜五折，一定二話不說買了再說。或者，尿布折價，一定先拎個幾包囤了再說。

真是歐巴桑的陋習。事後諸葛，各種不理性行為真的都只是一時衝動，沒有理由，簡直是暫時性失憶。嘖嘖。

原來你非不快樂，只有你一人未發覺

這是本書名。聽起來很像句歌詞的書名。原來作者是華人流行樂壇天后御用作詞家林夕。王菲、莫文蔚都有好幾首耳熟能詳的曲子是出自林夕之手，寫著都會愛情的酸甜苦辣。那是個周杰倫還沒紅起來的年代。

原以為也是本通俗的短文集，一篇篇卻都是讀經、讀古詩古詞的頓悟。頗有看破紅塵的味道。一天看一篇甚好。像聽一首從回憶深處傳來，已經隨歲月沈澱昇華了的歌；是那樣的深度啊。